I will be the first to admit it.
I love it.
I love thinking about it, talking about it and most definitely HAVING it!
Everyone has their thing. Some like sex with strangers, some like sex with friends,some like group sex, some like sex with one person.
Bottom line, sex is hot.
I remember being younger and wanting to have sex so badly!
Once I started doing it, it was all that was on my mind. I was a horny little so-and-so in my early 20s. I am still a horny little so-and-so now that I am 30, only I have taken control of my actions instead of letting things be the other way around.
Sex with strangers, sex with friends, group sex, sex with one person... each carries its own appeal, but for me, where I am in my life right now, I am ALL about having BOMB sex with one person. I am open to spicing things up, if the situation calls for it, but for me, sex, in general, is no longer just about physical pleasure.
In my early 20s, I will be honest. I was not worried about things like STDs. I was in the military and had to keep my stuff on the low so I would freak with other guys who were also in the military. I had a false sense of security because we all had medical insurance and were constantly getting bloodwork done for one thing or another. Don't ask me why it brought me peace, but it did.
Well, it is quite ironic that the one and only STD I ever contracted came during that time. I contracted chlamydia. I was treated for it and though the physical symptoms were no longer in my body, having contracted the infection changed my thought pattern when it came to sex indefinitely.
Up until that point, I was having sex with multiple people for the thrill and because it was accessible. I was in search of the next stimulating moment... thinking there was always something more out there. Even though I had some really HOT sessions, the only thing that remained a constant was fear/emptiness. I feared that the guy would out me and I would be kicked out of the military or feared that we would not speak anymore. I felt empty because I was just giving away all of my good stuff to people who really didn't mean anything to me (it was that moment when, right after cumming, that either he or I couldn't get our pants up fast enough and disappear... can I get a witness?!! Prior to actually getting into my first male-male relationship, I believe I only fell asleep afterwards and woke up with a man twice. I remember that feeling so good, but only twice? Something had to change.).
That is why I whole-heartedly subscribe to "Keepin' It Hot One on One". In this gay life, that may sound boring at first, but I find it more liberating than having sex with a whole lot of random people. Hell, the way I see it, we can get butt-naked in public and have sex while people watch if we want to break the monotony.
I am what one could call a monogamous freak. I am lucky to be in a relationship where we can speak freely about things like sex. We are not at all tight-lipped about it. We make our own rules and do what we want to and for each other. How refreshing.
I am glad that I had the opportunity in my life to define sex on my own terms and what I want it to be instead of letting sex define me and who I am as a person.