I feel good all over today.
For no particular reason, other than I am glad to be alive and have the chance to make today better than yesterday.
Plain and simple, the old Kenny is back.
I feel full of life. I feel like I can sing and dance again without worry of the rug being pulled from under my feet.
I was a passenger in my own life for a short period of time.
Being back in the driver's seat again feels better than I remember it.
Bottom line: I HAD ENOUGH
Enough of holding on to the past.
Enough of trying to force a present.
Enough of not concentrating on the future.
I won't go into too much detail until my breakthrough is complete, but I have finally started keeping a journal again just so I can air out all of my thoughts and order my steps better. My journal will help me make rational decisions as opposed to emotional ones.
I was talking to a good friend of mine a few months back about all of the things going on in my life and he must have seen my light extinguishing because he said to me, "Kenny, you had better get to living or continue dying."
I thought he was crazy, but I totally get it now.