Springing Back To Life!

"I Hope You Dance" - G. Knight

Man, I went down.

Hard. 

2009, for me, was like no other year.

Though there was a lot of change in my life, much of the time I felt stagnated.

Out of control.

Sad.

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Realizing I was falling, I tried to take control again.

Every time I tried something shook my foundation.

My job became stressful...

But the deepest cuts came when...

A person I loved seemed uninterested in me...

And a person I once loved forgot about past sacrifices and promises and made life very hard...

I became public enemy #1.

Devastating.

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I allowed myself to become a victim.

Overdramatic?

Perhaps, to some, but my love is the GREATEST gift I have to give so I have no shame in saying I felt CRIPPLED by my emotions and the weight of the situations.

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Not wanting to be the person I was allowing myself to become

I took some drastic measures.

"Let it all go," is what I thought to myself.

Not, "Let it all go" and live WITH it...

"Let it all go" and live WITHOUT it!

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I made peace with my job situation and am keeping all options open.

After deep thought and consideration, instead of walking away, I decided to give a fair chance to the person I love and re-invigorate his interest in me.

In order to do so, I had to CUT ALL TIES with the person I once loved... emotional, mental and financial.

I LET IT ALL GO...

In three different ways...

I LET IT ALL GO.

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I shut it down the last half of this year in order to get my mind right.

I look over my posts from earlier in the year and it is obvious that I was all over the place and running around in circles.

Finally...

Through my self-imposed silence I was actually able to reconcile my feelings about EVERY THING.

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I am on the mend.

I am healing.

I am beginning to appreciate the small things again.

I am accepting the changes and lessons of 2009...

And I am going to apply them in 2010.

I am SPRINGING BACK TO LIFE!

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"I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance

Never settle for the path with least resistance

Livin' might mean, taking chances, they're worth taking

Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making

Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter

When you come close to selling out reconsider

Give the heavens above more that just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance "

 

Comments

[dancehard]

I'm sooo glad things are moving in the right direction for you! I was a bit worried, but knowing your spirit and heart I knew you'd figure it out and get that pimp swagger back! If you need to chat it up or bounce some thoughts off somebody, I'm only a phone call and a glass of wine away! :)

[Domo]

I love this song and I love Gladys!